You are a Psycho!

Why are you always sad? Why are you always asking for more? Why do you need constant attention? Why are you so annoying? You really have a problem. You are just annoying everyone around you, even when you don’t want to.

You know when you want people to like you, and they like you but not the way you want to be liked. Like why?  And sometimes even if we tell them that its not the same, this is not the way, its hurting and they just don’t care because they love you and you’re just making everything up and you’re just expecting too much.

But why? Is expecting something that bad? Or is wanting to be loved in a certain way a bad thing? Is craving to feel seen and heard a bad thing? Is excepting an acknowledgement from the other person that you’re feeling that way a bad thing? People need to feel seen and heard. Everyone deserves that. Everyone in the entire universe deserves at least one person to tell them that they are sane, they are not psychotic or overthinking, its normal. Understand us.

You just want someone in your life who thinks that you are sane if you are talking your mind and heart out. You might only talk like that to one person. And that one person always tells you that you are a psycho. That person never makes you feel like your emotions are valid. You may not be a simple person, but you are just like everyone else. You deserve everything.

But when you think in third person, that person just tolerates every emotion of you. That person doesn’t give up at all. Even when you are showing your worst and your most selfish self, that person still forgives you and sticks with you. Not that you want their forgiveness because you did something really terrible, its just that they accepted your faults at that time.

And then they love you but you are not a part of anything in their life. Maybe they don’t mean it like that, but you feel that. Maybe you are overthinking as you always do, but sometimes just including you in every important thing in their life really makes you feel special. And introducing you to their friends is not that hard to do. If they are not doing it, then you will simply hate those unknown persons in your life because you are not getting enough time from your person.

There are days when you want to tell them things with so much excitement, could be something happy, sad or even a gossip. You wait for them to reach home and talk to you. You just keep on waiting and lose all the excitement and then their tired self will come and tell you about their day and goes to sleep. You just hear it, being happy for them, of course, but you are just sad that you are not talking anymore properly and they don’t have time. And you can’t tell them anything like you used to.

Keep your shit together, do it yourself. Don’t expect others to solve your mental problems and baby sit you all the time. You are no one else’s responsibility. Keep yourself happy but don’t make others sad purposefully, but sometimes being selfish is the only way. Don’t feel bad for that.